Lecrae - Death story
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I'm blackin' out, on my last leg/ takin' final breaths'/
Overheard the doctor say I ain't gonna make it, final steps/
In the zone half panickin' half feelin' gone. Hang on homie!
My boys yellin tryna keep me goin. Little sister in the
distance, I see her tears flowin. Where mommy at? She on the
ground passed out cold. Aw man this is how it ends, death
came quick. My God I'll do anythang just let me live. I
wanna pray but I can't pray, I never really done it. I dont
know if I should call Christ, Buddah or Mohammed. Gettin
blunted earlier this evenin now seems wrong and my brain is
searchin hard for any scripture or song. I'm havin
flashbacks, now I remember, it was December. I was standing
on the corner pitchin rocks in the winter. Young dude ran up
on me thought he was a winner but he started tryna convince
me all the ways i'm a sinner.
(Man, you never understood man. You've lied before right?You've stolen before right? Man you've already broken two of the ten commandments man. That qualifies you as a law breaker, thats sin man, it offends the holy and perfect and righteous God man, thats sin, you need a savior because of the sin man. I'm just tryna break it down for you.)
Havin a hard time breathin. But I ain't leavin until I know what I believe in. Wait maybe it was Ak on the block who was tellin me Mohammed was the rock, nah, stop.
(You know man, you know Mohammed was the truth. You know what im sayin? Islam is the way to go yo.)
But ain't Mohammed die? Yeah, dawg and they buried him, thats scary then cuz I don't know if Allah really carries men. Let's get back to Jesus. Coughin and wheezin, this world's full of lies man, everythings misleadin. They told me dont be scared to die but dawg thats ridiculous cuz I dont know what happens to me next in this predicament. Its sickenin. God give me answers, give me clues, help me understand, who do I trust, what do I do?
(Okay we're losin him, we're losin him. He's dying fast. Nurse! Help me! I need help over here. Hurry up!)
Ah, oh man. I can't breath. I'm dyin. Can't think. Wait, wait, Mohammed, Buddah, no, no, no, no, no, no, Jesus, Jesus. Okay, back to Christ, first he lived, then he died. Then that easter play I saw one time said he came back alive. And God so loved the world. What's the rest of that verse? Think fast, I can't remember, help me nurse! Whats John 3:16 nurse? "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son..." Gave up his only son, okay yea thats right. So whoever believes in him wait... who turned out the lights? Im dyin! Im dead! No my eyes went closed. I can't feel my feet no mo and my sides is cold. God please im sorry for all the wrong that I've done. I know I been a terrible father and a horrible son. I see it now. I wish that I could change some things in my life, I really never took the blame for things. like lyin and stealin and hurtin and dealin. I'd quit it all if your willin and let me walk out dis buildin. I wronged you I see dat I wanna give in but I aint really sure if you've forgivin my sins. Well this is it, no more discussion to do. I don't know much but I know I should be trustin in....